I kind of feel like a nomad of life who wanders aimlessly around to find where she belongs... but hasn't found it yet. I don't know. Just a brain fart.

Anyway, while perusing people's myspaces and xangas and stumbling across those that belong to people I know (friends and acquaintances), it's crazy how common being married, getting engaged, or having a child is at my age. Of course a majority of my friends and acquaintances are still single, but surprisingly a lot of them are settling down. I previously thought I would be part of this lot because rarely was I single, but the realization is that at my age despite the fact I'm single, haha, I don't think I'd be ready for it. In fact, the idea of marriage kind of scares me. Should I ever be faced with the question "will you marry me?", will I really know the answer to that? How would I know that we're meant to be together forever? Will I say "yes" just because it seems like the polite answer and then regret it later? Will I say "no" because I want to think about it and never come up with an answer? Will I just know that it's right? It's been a long time since I've felt that the person I was with really was "the one" so perhaps this is why marriage as a concept is really foreign to me now. I just can't imagine feeling that again. But when the right guy comes, I really hope I know it and that it's obvious...

posted by che @ 5:20 PM